Long Bitching Pt 1

I had to delayed my supposed blog to further dates due to my tight schedule. I am busy and that is VERY BLOODY FUCKING busy.... I had to let out my stress in this post.. I feel i had to... I really had to... I'm gonna rant, insult and complain and it's not going to be pretty...

1. Complain 1
First of all, i would like to stress again...I AM VERY BLOODY FUCKING BUSY.... You people do not believe me then just keep your mouth shut and i don't care..you wanna doubt me then go ahead...I don't fucking care but if you wanna doubt me and deliberately do it in front of me then you are not getting on my good side at all... I absolutely hate it when ppl do not believe how busy i am, it's just that you don't bloody enrolled in Industrial Design in UTM.. Lack of sleep and heavy workload...which SRI students never experienced it before? Even parasites that never do any work also experienced the same torture...If you wanna take into account that you slept at 2 and then boast that you too lack of sleep then fuck you..you never tasted what is like to sleep 2 hours max per day for a few days straight...I never understand why exam-based students need to complain and sometimes boast how stressful they are and even said i have an easy life here(coz i need not face that much books)...well i challenged anyone who think like that for a duel..The conditions are as below:

1. Try to take a can of putty open it near you and leave it for a few days...
2. Try sanding that bloody putty's surface until it became glossy enough
3. Try using tonnes of spray cans for a few days
4. Try applying putty and try to get it even (one of the most fucking hard thing to do)
5. Try to sleep 2 hours a day while doing this (i never even put in don't sleep at all)
6. Try doing your bloody 3d modelling while doing this
7. Try writing your report while doing this
8. Try preparing for exam while doing this
9. Try preparing your panel while doing this
10. LAST of all, PREPARE your hardwork to be Critisized and insulted during your presentation

Do this for 1 week, and you still think thatstudying your books late every night is more hectic and stressful, then i would gladly exchange course with you and even pay you for it...Anyone up for challenge?

And i hate it when people complain that they are lack of sleep when all they did was watching dramas or shows till late at night or even gaming....You people are very ignorant and never tasted the bitter part of life..

And i absolutely do not understand why people will question me when i said i'm busy...Is it because i used to be fucking lazy? comments like...."busy still online?" "busy still can surf net?" "busy still can watch show?" Why can't i do that? those entertainments are for short term, I dun bloody facebook for 3 hours? You might see me online in facebook 24/7 but look at my activities for God's sake...look at the time...the ranging and random and not continuous time...Busy cannot rest awhile? It's the same as eating or sleeping when busy? Why don't you just don't eat or sleep until your work is done? if your work can only be completed in a week's time then why not don't sleep or eat or even drink for a week? I need to release my stress and worries by facebooking once awhile and watch some shows...the shows i watch is only for awhile then pause then continue my work...SHOOT ME FOR DOING THAT..........

To those people (note that i say people not person which means not only 1 who say that) who has been really ignorant then please research on my course or even interview designers for it..you think it's damn easy to study this design course? Take up my challenge..I even save you the trouble of researching and designing...

2.Complain no.2
Every sem i've been blessed with "wonderful" group member that could entirely screwed me upside down...Last sem, i had this group member, S who entirely screwed up my project. S never did anything like i ask her to and her constant complaints about how long her bloody com need to render a few seconds animation....a few hours for 3 secs? Do she seriously thinks i'm dumb? Please take note that her cpu is only a week old and had a Quad Core processor in it with 4GB ram...My computer took less than an hour to render a 3 sec animation and my com is only a Core 2 Duo with 2GB ram... Conclusion?
Intel had better step up in their processors' develepment as C2D had tremendously overpowered C4Q...
I had asked my senior to help me render my animation with his Quad Core com and he took less than 20 minutes to do so...WOW, magic!!
I shouldn't jump into conclusion yet, S might be good in doing her animation, in terms of motion, lighting, materials etc etc...which explains the amount of time she need...I only got her work less than a minute before my presentation and wow...she overestimated me for being able to combine these shits in a few secs..the next thing i know? She's on the way back to Melaka which means it's down to me and my other group member to present our stuff...I checked her stuff with great expectation and hoping S could prove me wrong with her works...One word to describe her work...
FUCKALASTIC
I seriously cannot believe her works....It's so unbelievable terrible that i really wanted to strangle her to death....Although I'm not expecting anything good from her but it seems i had OVERestimated her.....I'm serious about this...The flaws? Not even a minute long for total animation which is the minimum requirement for each member to do, not according to the storyline, No linkage between scenes, nothing good about it, No movement, It's terrible enough to make me blow my top and good enough for many people to laugh at it....The only thing that stop me from screwing her is that I do not want to talk or see her anymore...To make things worse is she do not even wanna apologise and even had the guts to act as though nothing had happened...If you are reading this, I do not need your apology or any shits....if you do not have the guts to admit and talk to me about then then you are really worthless..

This sem, another group member like that.....Damn, all thse people should be grouped together to see how sucks can they be... If you happens to read this too...Insult me for being mean with my words but i have the rights to do so... You do not need to do 3d modelling and GA and help out with the modelling and cut wood in this bloody group project.. I could forgive turning up late for meeting or work for 30 minutes...but an hour? 3 hours? you don't bloody live 200 km away and you just live about 200 meters away...Turning up when everybody had finished their work, not apologising and still act ignorant about it? As soon as i grad i will give each of these assholes a piece of my mind...I don't bloody care what you need to say or insult.....You only do design report and how about exchanging workload?

WORSE of all, when she turns up, she puts up such disinterested and ignorant outlook...the only thing that holds back my punches is I don't hit girls.....if there are anyone who thinks that i wrongly judged her, here's a newsflash...I"M NOT THE ONLY ONE..Juniors, coursemates from other sections....AM i being a little too sensitive? Fuck people who thinks so...try having her in your group...I wonder can you all really bear with all this..

That's all for part 1, I wasted much time doing this...Time to hit back to my 3D modelling...I will definitely continue this....

A Bloody NEED to RENOVATE MY BLOG

Recently I'm so into reading blogs...not just your average blog from average people (n0 offense to those who took it seriously), i began reading blogs from famous bloggers. I wanted to know what made them so successful and famous. The difference is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo obvious from my blog...Let's just say my blog is FUCKING DULL AND BORING...... haha may be it's due to the layout...

May be it's the bloody dull lay out and almost pictureless display (saved by David Southwell's book cover) (T.T) and then i realise that my paragraphs are too long.. No one will ever bother reading these shits if it's too long...even I do not felt encouraged to do so...It's just so pathetic..I might have some contents to blog about but i do not think i have the visual advantage here (so much for being an industrial design student)..

Currently i have a very good blog material and for me it's a BLOODY MUST for people to read them....although i never did care if people ead my blog or not but i really want them to read the blog i'm about to post..hopefully next week..I'm totally motivated tro blog as good as bloggers like Xiaxue (I love her blog materials for their hilarious and truthful contents). Although sometimes I do not agree with her certain point of views but i still found her blog amazing...Go to the site xiaxue.blogspot.com...i particularly love the posts on Phone Sex and Certainly NOT Dull..I've thought of asking Xiaxue tips on getting her blog so good but I just don't think a blogger like her will waste time telling me how to..Unlike David Southwell, till now I still felt happy that a famous writer like him will eventually pay attention to a nobody's blog like mine..

This posts is just to release my sudden urge of blogging and nothing else in particular...I might be getting too lazy to blog and most probably because I did too many report writing this sem until it makes me puke....ARGHHH i so fucking hate doing irrelevant reports especially my Institusi-instituse Islam course...why the fuck I am a bloody Buddhist that don't even read on Buddhism must study on Islamic...It's just don't go right..I thought Islamic religion should respect the freedom of taking up religion..this sort of things are like forcing it on us...DAMN

Moreover...the connection here bloody sucks..i repeat...BLOODY FUCKING SUCKS....THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE THE BEST ENGINEERING UNIVERSITY IN MALAYSIA AND THEY CAN'T EVEN PROVIDE A GOOD INTERNET CONNECTION FOR ITS STUDENTS....COME ON, UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MALAYSIA.....IF YOU ALL CAN DETECT WHO BLOODY HACK INTO YOUR SERVER THEN WHY NOT BLOODY PROVIDE US WITH GOOD LINES...KNS INTERNET CONNECTION SURE WILL COME OUT WITH KNS WORK WAN LA...

I think that's all for now...further typing will hence delay my studies on principle of marketing test for tomorrow, ergonomics report, and islamic presentation tomorrow...yes..ISLAMIC PRESENTATION.....FUCKKKK i hate doing stuff i dun understand...........

Secrets And Lies

Well actually i had bought this book entitled "Secrets and Lies" by David Southwell, a retired well-known journalist. In this book, he exposed lots of secrets behind the US government that are unknown to public, false reports, secrets of many Hollywood stars and many more. Articles that are contained in them are example of how JFK became the president of United States due to faulty votes, the actual facts about a dinosaur named Brontosaurus, JFK's brain is missing, a secret society that many US presidents were in etc. Well basically it is quite a fun book to read and those who are interested in these kind of conspiracies and secrets, you should love this book.

Anyway, i'm not promoting about this book but just to let you people know where the post's inspirations came from. When i read the large segment by David Southwell, he had revealed the world's biggest lie and biggest secret of all time. The world's biggest lie is that YOU do not have the power to make a difference and the world's biggest secret is that despite knowing the biggest lie, why we did not act upon it.

How splendidly written and true about this statement. It just struck me that a mere human like even myself could manage if i put effort into it. History had painted many big names such as John F. Kennedy, Adolf Hitler, Gandhi or even Tun Mahathir or even Elvis...They are just normal individuals and yet they accomplished what many had look upon to. Why did no one really act upon the injustice they noticed? HOW many actually went for it? MALAYSIAN STYLE = WE SEE, WE PRETEND TO IGNORE, LIFE GOES ON........practically i dun mean all malaysians are like this but most of them this is what i noticed.. Particularly rubbish dumpsite which i mentioned in my previous post that ironically usually comes with a 'no-throwing-rubbish-sign' with them. How far to the extend is our short-sighted than we can't see such simple sign? No wonder there are so many shops like England Optic since business must be good. Even if we noticed injustice or crime taken place, how many had act upon them? Take as an example our last general election. Many did not vote becoz they do not think tha merely one vote makes a difference.

Even if you guys read this post but will anyone do anything about it? Will anyone who lead a normal life will dare to go up against a powerful politician? THERE ARE even polices that did not dare to take down a sodomy report against a politician. We do not know what each and everyone of us can do and hence we just leave like it is or let the nature run its own course. I might be talking about all this but at this rate may be i'm contributing at least a bit effort in hopefully affecting some readers who might actually read my blog. How far along do we need to keep this lie and how long will we need in order to overcome the secret. If there are people who really see my point, you guys will be amazed by realizing what we could actually do individually. Take for example David Southwell, he took risk in exposing secrets and lies unknown to many and this could lead to the arrests of CIA. Although he did refrain himself from exposing too much but he actually did play with fire in order to may be motivate certain readers or curious bastards like myself with his book and writings. So do anyone here dare to play with fire?

That's all for now It's only a short post unlike my previous one. Anyway before i sign off, i would like to state the purpose of my blog page. This blog is meant for me to express myself and what i think and i do not expect anyone to read it all. Basically the style of my blog can be derived from my title itself. LITERATURE = Something that might bore the shit out of someone but at the same time interesting to others. If u expect flashy and "picture-ful" blog page then u might be looking at the wrong blog page. I do wish people whould read my stuff and would be happy if anyone leave me a comment but honestly i dun really think that will happen. Most people will be bored after reading few sentences and I would not be bothered by it. This is a place for me to release my thinking and not to entertain readers as much as i could. That's all for now. TQ SIGNING OUT~~~~~~

WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAVE THE SOCIETY

Let's just face it.It IS bloody impossible to save our society. It is now easier to find a bad apple in the basket rather than a good one. what could possible lead to this impossibility? Mass media? Internet? Movies? Music? Bla...bla...bla.. Every can play the BLAME GAME and everyone LOVES to be in it the game. Proving ownself innocent then judging others guilty and the cycle will forever be circling round and round and right back to the start. Can anyone see the common factor in all this bullshit? HUMANS..That's right. You can deny all you want but the shit will just come back to us.


Why our society's morale integrity used to be in such high level? Why we cannot learn from the past to apply in the present to build a better future? EASY. Family education and society's role model are no more as effective. Can you expect a cigarette-popping father to ask his son or daughter to quit smoking? Or do you expect some foul-mouthed parents wanted to teach their children some politeness and manners? I could only guarantee that these children will definitely find a few "extra vocabularies" for them to use in daily life. Why our society's Role Model had changed from Mahatma Gandhi to David Beckham? Why? May be they respect him for having such a hot wife to bang but i dunno..


OK, now we look into another factor. Politicians..Do we SERIOUSLY REALLY need to learn from them? Are they really good role models? Corruption, Lies and Scandals..How much of these that we need to taint our history of humanity? From politicians who often sleeps in meeting to sodomizing accusation to sex in the hotel then get busted and the list goes on and on. We don't need scandals to contaminate the young minds. I bet that the young ones will definitely say that why bother doing wrong things, they do them too. Yes we humans are filled with errors but i do not see such obvious scandals during the 1960's and so on. Seeing someone swearing on the Holy Book, but what's the point? What happens if he really does lies? Will the book beat the hell out of the person and make him crap in his pants? Or he will get the suitable punishment when he pass on to a "better" world? Seriously how will we know or will everyone be contended with the assumption he will rot "there" if he lies? Something that is unproven and still a mystery is really SO RELIABLE? I'm not trying to deny the existence of God but isn't God all-forgiving? Will the crimes be forgiven? There are just too many questions unanswered. The government should really quit playing mind games and being drawn into fighting for power. Instead, do something for our economy and education downfall rather than creating coffee shops talk topic. The general election is over a long time ago but it seems it is far from from over.


Singers, actors, sportsman...bla...bla...Haven't we seen enough scandals revolving around them? Truly amazing how people expect us to learn things that they could not learn either. Why put the blame on us for social problems such as rape, robbery and so on so on? We the younger generations just did what we are suppose to do. What is it? LEARN. Isn't that's what the adults wanted us to do? We LEARN how to watch porn as a divine entertainment. We LEARN how to speak the "proper-adult" language and we LEARNED that the word "FUCK" is the most versatile word of all. We LEARN how to commit crimes to make us survive is this harsh cold world. We LEARN and LEARN and LEARN. YET the blame is on us. That's the reason why the society cannot be saved. Everyone is doing mistake and at the same time blaming others. YES, very true I'm blaming people now BUT isn't there a point? We youngsters are arrogant and dumb bastards. We thought everything that is WRONG is COOL and TRENDY. We are so smart that we claim education and examination are useless. WE are so dumb to study hard to score good grades in one of the world's toughest examination and still not get the courses we wanted whereas those that study in another program with not so good grades end up with the course they wanted. Can we still be saved? We craved for SALVATION but in return we get more and MORE STARVATION.


WE wanted to have sex because we wanted to know what else could our body POSSIBLY do rather than just, eat, breathe, move, sleep and shit. We rob and steal because we wanted to know what is it for being able to survive. Prices of everything goes up but yet our salary remained the same as ever. WE lie in business and claimed it is a tactic that only a master can manipulate. Increasing cost with constant income could only cause us to seek more alternatives. We began to LEARN the "business-trade" in the underworld. If it is wrong to commit crimes to earn money, then why the bloody fuck there is no increase in salary? Our selfishness to continue to survive in this "improving" economy will eventually lead to the downfall of this society. So that's why we cannot be saved.


SAVE us by throwing free money at us. SAVE us by providing us with free sex toys so we won't release it on others. SAVE us by providing every countries in the world with government that are willing to sacrifice to save us rather than making profits or filled with corruptions and scandals. HOW far will we go to free this society fro the grip of despair? Can anyone actually do that? WE are not Superman, Wonder Woman or Batman because we lack the superpower abilities and the wealth and also the super power ability or wearing undergarments on the outside. So how can we save ourselves? It is practically impossible and a reality check for those who still hold a faint hope of saving the world and scumbags called human. Everyone lives for themselves and that's the law we humans had agreed on. We might sacrifice ourselves to save our family, friends, loved ones but will we sacrifice to save the whole world? Can anyone willing to starve to death so that their food can be shared with those who did not eat? Can Brangelina adopt every single children craving for their help?


HOW can we save the society when we cannot even clean the shits in the public toilets? HOW about cleaning the public trash sites that ironically usually comes with a sign "Jangan Buang sampah di sini. Denda...." HOW about letting an ugly kid sing rather than replacing her with some pretty kid who ironically can lip-synch? How about demoting pedophile archbishops or do we actually need to keep them as role model? Promises are made and promises are broken. We had pratically given up the idea of complete salvation among mankind. Loopholes in LAW and Assholes are USING them. This led to the many and many of problems that we had.


That's all for a piece of my mind that could eventually lead to some unpeaceful thinking. I do not wish to offend anyone in this post as you already had the warining before entering this dump site. XD Anyway do drop a comment. I welcome any criticism and also insults. My computer is practically noob-proof to be able to handle that. =P that's all fro now...SIGNING OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Project-project

I dunno what is it to me..It seems that i have lost all the interest to blog about what's in my mind..Sometimes i realize it doesn't really matter what i think, there are things that are far more important to be considered..

Anyway, i failed my first project...and then having tremendous task ahead of me in finishing this sem..goodness..how i wish i could slow time or might as well stop it..zzz it's 1.49 am and my mind is really really blurry of what's going on...

However i do have several things going on in my mind that i would like to share with my readers..hopefully tomorrow..haha byeez

Moments of truth and despair = priceless

It's been centuries ago since i last updated this piece of crap..i'm gonna make it more interesting soon when i'm free...life has been busy and hectic..well, the bloody reason i wrote this post is that how unhappy i had become over such a small period..i may not be the type that everyone in the world will like and i ain't gonna aim for that..my first design project was given last friday..it is a hell of a task to be completed in 2 weeks time..i was truly amazed by certain ppl..well, how fake and falseful they are till the stage that they think they still did the right thing...i know may be my coursemates-chinese or non-chinese alike-will not read my blog..if they do, well just think about what i'm about to deliver here.

During this early stage of design, i fairly think that we all should work together regardless of groupings or races..but supposingly as far as i'm concerned, the hell i see unity and team working among my mates..each and everyone of them just set their eyes on others ideas and researches without offering anything in return..i'm more than willing to discuss together about this subject matter but i've seen no equal compensation in return for it...am i being selfish or asking too much for trading information? i simply do not know...it's been a merry-go-round affair for all i'm concerned.."do u have any ideas for the project?" 'Erm, kinda had a few mechanism planning out..you?' "oh, i had no idea, what did u plan?"...like hell i'm gonna letting u take it all without giving any back...may be some of you all did not realise it but it's way too obvious..what are friends? i believe that we are much more than friends...we are comrades..each n everyone of us wanted to outshine each other n be the best..well, to tell the truth, i do not know how we can be the best without helping each other out..Nokia designers dun work alone? which designer will? who can excel and climb to the top all by themselves? i dun not care about the competition among each other..being competitive is good but there is a fine line between competitive and selfishness..why not we share out research together and then come out with your own design? each and everyone of us need to help each other out and in case u guys neva heard what che tat said..he said, "I'm gonna let you guys choose your own group members, that way i can see what kind of ppl u r"...need a hint? UNITY..i do not know how long will it take them to understand this but as far as i'm concerned..if everyone is gonna be selfish well so am i..i thought that i could share out some useful information that will help a lot but i guess..no point in doing so..i'll be back for the next post...updating on the project..tata